Geeking out....

Yeah, all geeks experience moments of geeking out. I'm just coming down off a week (maybe two?) of major geeking out. And chances are, I'm not done.

Really I can shift some of the blame onto my wonderful friend Em....she introduced me to a new show. Supposedly it's Sci-Fi, but the only thing really Sci-Fi about it is that it takes place in space on different plantes. Great show however....should never have been cancled. Around the same time I started watching the show, I got the chance to meet Wil Wheaton. On the outside I just looked like a sweet, geek-free fangirl, but internally I was having a major geek out moment. You know, like freak out, but geek out. I then promptly checked his books out from the library (hilarious, I highly recomend them) and decided to do the ulitmate geek thing: write a Star Trek series. I'm really not a big fan of DS9 or Enterprise (I adore Voyager despite it's lack of Gene Roddenbury) and would love to bring it around.

Geeking out is actually quite fun. Yesterday I spent most of the morning watching episodes from ST: TNG (season 1) and had tons of fun talking to the TV screen and...well...geeking out in major ways. I've named my car B'Ellana, my iPod Beverly Crusher and am writing a Sci-Fi novel based off my love for Star Trek.

I am a geek, I proudly admit it. I provide endless entertainment to my friend (who also has her geeking out moments, but she's actually a Twerd instead of a Trekkie)and I love ComiCon, I can't wait for more. Embrace the geek...cause frankly, we're cool.

Idolatry+Codependancy= Twilight?

In Eclipse (the third Twilight instalment), Bella's (the main character) biggest fear is that Edward (her boyfriend) will leave her. That in and of itself isn't so bad. But it gets to the point where Bella can't stand to be alone. She's constantly worried and on edge. Edward had previously left Bella, saying being with him would only get her hurt (which was true) and Bella fell to peices. She wouldn't eat, only slept, never hung out with her friends, until she went to Italy to save Edward and bring him back to Forks. Bella hung out only with the Cullens (Edwards family) and thought her heart waas only big enough for Edward and all her problems would be solved once she was an immortal vampire and could spend eternity with him. On occasion, Bella would speak about Edward's soul and how the only kind of heaven she could imagine was one with Edward.

Bella dates a vampire. She hangs out with his family (all vampires) and this causes problems. Bella's unwillingness to part with Edward nearly gets herslef killed, the Cullens almost killed (all on more than one occasion)her dad's life is constantly threatened (though he doesn't know it) and her best friend Jacob (a werewolf). If Bella had let go of her idolatry and co-dependancy upon Edward, eleven lives would be safe. But Bella wont. She insits that sge simply cannot live without him.

Bella and Edward could have had a healthy relaionship (while keeping in mind that this is completely fictional) if Edward was not preimminent in her life. Had that been God; had Jesus been the one she refused to go without; had she felt so strongly at the thought of Jesus leaving her (which He never would have); then her and Edward could have had a healthy, loving relationship. Everyone, even fictional characters, were made to worship something and Bella chooses Edward.

When in doubt....start a new chapter?

So, I'm working on this book-thing. It's the farthest that I have ever written a book and I'm pretty jazzed about that. But a week ago I wrote this scene. It was a pretty intense scene and I've been stuck as to how to continue. Like, how do I follow that up? I decided, start a new chapter. It's so much easier that way. Close the door on that section, leave it to ferment and settle, find it's footing and then come back once I've stirred up more drama in the other characters lives. But I feel bad about that. Like I'm abandoning those two characters. They just took a very important step and because I'm afraid of that, I'm leaving them alone with their emotions. Is that right? Is there some kind of ethical ruling that says you have to take care of your characters in every aspect? How do you balance 6 characters? Especially when they are as messed up and emotional basket cases like mine? Where do I draw the line at them crossing over into my reality and keep them in theirs?

Books I Read 2

Just finished another book. This one was "The Princetta" by Anne-Laure Bondoux. It was thrilling. Pirates, fights, new worlds, run away princesses, dashing captains, love, loss, pain, forgiveness, secrets, and everything in between. I read, and read and read until it felt like my head would explode. Have you ever read a book and become so submersed that you see yourself as the main character? Or you give faces to unknown characters, but their faces are people you know? Voices change, morph to fit their looks. You can see the rise and fall of the ocean, here the distant cannons, feel the salty sea air as it dries your lips and whips your hair around. As the number of pages left began to shrink, I became nauseous and dizzy. My heart started to beat faster and I knew, this is it. Only a few pages left. Then it was done. I had reached the end of my book, and yet another story was closed on me. But I'm still reeling from the story. Even though it had a bittersweet ending, it was still amazing. I'm eager to find out more about this author and find more stunning tales of piracy and heroics.

Quick Update...

I just wanted to post saying that I'm about to leave to go get my braces off. It's a strange feeling, that I will never see them again after today. It's like a really close friend that moved away. You can see pictures, but it's not the same. So, goodbye my love, we spent a fabulous (and trying) two years together. I bid you au revoir, and I will miss you.

Books I Read

I have decided to post every book I read over the next few months. Starting today. I love to read and I read constantly, but past a few months ago, I rarely remember books I read, and because I read so many, I think it's important that I write it all down so I don't forget. Today I finished a book called Eternity's Edge. It was written by Bryan Davis, who is, in my opinion, one of the best Christian Fiction authors around. He also wrote another series that I love called Dragons In Our Midst. But I digress. This was the second in the Echoes from the Edge series and I was really happy with it. I bought it two months ago, but lost it in one of my roommates rooms ( I have no clue how it got there). I found it yesterday and finished it around 4 this afternoon. I really love Bryan's character development. He creates really lovable, diverse, and interesting characters. So yeah, I loved it and I have two more books that I just got that I can't wait to read :)

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I am obviously not very good at the whole "regular blogging thing." But sometimes it does feel good to just have somewhere to arrange my thoughts. Even if it makes no sense to everyone else, it makes sense to me. Yesterday I got the new Taylor Swift album and I adore it. Her style is so amazing and the fact the she wrote, almost single-handedly (is that a word?), whole album is rather impressive. But, she is a teenage girl and there are depressing love songs. One in particular caught my attention. The other night I was throwing a pity party and said "There is no Romeo for me. No Tom (longer story), no Edward (cringe) no Mr. Darcy for me." So then, a few days later I hear this song. "I'm not a princess, this aint a fairytale. I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet, lead her up the stairwell. This aint hollywood, this is a small town. I was a dreamer before you went and let me down. Now it's too late for you and your white horse to come around."

Doesn't that perfectly echo the sentiments of a melodramatic teenager? Logically, I know I will most likely end up married. Thats what my brain says. But my heart counter acts that with, well I don't want to just get married. I want a love story. And my brain responds with, well wait. God will bring you one when its time. But my oh-so impatiant heart says now. And it has me in the cross-fire of a brain-on-heart war. And frankly, I don't know what to do.